So cuir a- mach mostly means to throw up (check out the G.I. Joe movie clip below to see it used as eject but I couldn't help but think he was telling the plane to throw him up and if that plane spoke Gaelic cough not Celtic cough, it really shouldn't have fired) but it can also mean 'launch' and this dual meaning seems very appropriate for me right now.
I'll explain that in a minute but first I want to say a Huge Thank You to everyone, everyone who has been reading this blog, everyone who has signed up for the mailinglist, everyone who helped out with the fundraising just everyone! Tapadh leibh gu mor! I am so very grateful to you all.
Alright now back to why cuir a-mach is the right title for today's post. I was going to be leaving today for the traveling part of the project and while I am super excited to be really getting started I have also manged to get into a state of supper high anxiety, like feeling like my throat is closing and all the blood leaving my extremities 'cause my body thinks it might be dying sort of anxiety. Yesterday was useless, I was supposed to get my whole house clean (extra clean, 'cause I don't know the cat sitter all that well) and the car clean and get the laundry done and pack and figure out what I will need for the three weeks I'll be gone. I got about 1% of that done then just spent the rest of the day freaking out. Now I feel like, I do go a bit crazy sometimes but I think it is possible to work with my own mind and I was able to get curious about why this was freaking me out so much. It seems like a mixture of worrying about my house and cat and just normal travel nerves and the an extra huge helping of 'oh my gosh what have I gotten my self into!!!" in terms of this project and the performances. There is a part of me that know that most likely I will do just fine and even if I totally bomb them it is just part of a path to getting good at performing which is where I want to be, however that part must have been on vacation yesterday. Thus the throwing up part. fortunately today feels much better and there is no harm in me leaving tomorrow. :)
Which gets us to the 'launch' part of cuir a-mach. Tomorrow I'll be heading out to Boulder to do a workshop on doing math in Gaelic with the Boulder Gaelic Study Group . This is where I started learning Gaelic and where some of my really good friends are :) also I love teaching math (up to about 5/6th grade level) I especially love teaching math in Gaelic, even times tables and fractions! So it should be really good.
I'm going to use this blog as a place to keep people up to date on this project as well as continuing to share my thoughts about Gaelic and my thoughts in Gaelic on lots of other things. So thanks again and keep looking here for updates. And now for the clip, try not to explode when you hear her pronunciation of 'teine' :)
Caroline has been involved with Gaelic for more than 18 years. She has degrees in Celtic Studies and Gaelic Medium Teaching.